Hi I'm Sophie and this is a really bad excuse for a blog. Expect Yogscast, Roosterteeth, photography and the ocassional doodle.
petition to make ‘an extra hour in the ball pit’ a white card in cards against humanity
Ah, but you assume that I am happy all the time, which simply is not true. I don’t know anyone who is. You only see maybe 1 hour tops of content from me a day, when I’m ideally at my best. The rest of the time is mostly depression.
At the moment I know that I can’t be happy with my current living conditions, I know that I need to move out and live with Fiona, that’s my next step. But I can’t do it yet, so instead I turn my focus to you guys who need help more. By aiming to be cheery and positive when I have your attention, by trying my best to help you guys out, it’s a nice distraction from my own thoughts, and it makes me happy to know that you’re happy. I’m trying to find the best mix of selfishness and selflessness. I don’t believe it’s healthy to be 100% of either one. The times I was selfish are when I hurt or shut out other people around me more. But the times I try to be 100% selfless are the times I stress myself out and end up more depressed. So, a balance is needed.
I go through every day doing my best to do a video for you guys and also spend time with Fiona and also play video games for fun by myself or with my friends. It’s a balance. To be able to maintain this and stay relatively positive I simply only need to read the messages, tweets etc. from you all every day, when you guys just watched my new video, or whatever, knowing that I’m making even the slightest difference to your lives is an incredible feeling. I also constantly have the dream of living with Fifi in my mind. I know that will happen one day. It’s all I hold on to right now. Just keeping one dream, belief, person in your mind, no matter how unobtainable it may seem at first, can really help give you the drive and motivation you need.
But balance is the most important thing. Allow time for yourself, allow time for others, allow time to feel sad, allow time to be happy. Allow days to just laze about doing much of nothing, allow days to work non-stop. Allow pleasure. Allow pain. The key is not to aim for complete total happiness, that is unobtainable. The aim is to be able to balance your sadness equally. A yin and yang. It’s okay to be sad. And it’s okay to be happy. It’s okay to spend all day by yourself, and it’s okay to want to go out and party. But too much of one thing (even if it’s positive) throws everything else off. Keep holding on to that dream that you have, keep aiming for that balance, and eventually one day it will come naturally to you. Be your complete self. Good luck. <3
This was planned as a simple drawing and then Alea came and asked if I’d animate the water. She’s the ultimate animation enabler.
based on http://awkward-lee.tumblr.com/post/70180466531/looks-like-someones-jealous
Love the concept for this game so much, it’s horrifying.
"how will i explain gay couples to my children”
if you can explain to your children that an immortal man in a red suit who lives in the north pole travels around the entire world on one night every year on a sleigh carried by magical flying deer i think itll be easy enough to tell them two people are in love
Kim gets the job done.
Thank you for joining me in the stream last night if you did! :) I really like this one! I will draw Sun next and maybe the rest of his team whenever they show up